intensive training 09 n touche competition

finally is over...training...competition...all finish di...can start my holiday di...haha..dunno y...i start to miss the training time...wake up early in the morning go training...run tracks for 20 mins( first time ever i feel im so geng...haha...coz i run for 7 rounds...non stop...),go round RST,captain ball...nite training... al the footwork...warmup thingy...all the happy time...go anywhere also with a bunch of sot sot people...miss it so much...though the training is really a tough one...now i feel the emptiness now after training...feel like nothing to go for...everyday nothing to do...eat slp n shit...haha...
feel so sad the competition ends di...feel so regret y i din wake up in the first match competition...lose again to peiling...haiz...after one year also no improvement... in team event also...let opponent get so many points...i shouldn't do that...haiz...wasted...always sleeping...slow motion...react so slow...haiz...i really hope tat i can react faster... wake up earlier...focus more when competition...haiz...but then now regret also no use di...i promise myself i will do better next time... i hope i wont react slow again next time...haha...i really hope so...
after everything...i really learn a great lesson on tat...just as wat abe like to say: u'll learn, u'll learn...haha...i noe still got a lot of things that i need to learn...dealing with people...handling every problems...how to make a good team...still got a lot more obstacle to face...but im so glad that i got lot of frens n teammate with me...im not alone...i noe all of them will always be there for me...everything that i face hopefully will make me a more mature person...
i feel so happy that the intensive training n the competition was so good....starting to feel the team spirit...all the sacrifactions tat i give is all worth...hope the team spirit will keep on going...keep it on n on...
and all the cheers...like it so much...usm huat a!!! usm ha!!! usm huiyoo!!! usm hooga hooga hoo!!! he usm!!!n so many more....haha...though really sampat...but i think the other people really feel shock of it...haha...
again congrats tro all who got medals...keep the spirit going....for those who lost...get another try in sabah...v can do it de...okok???hehe

people o people...where's the passion???

yesterday go training...only 3 seniors...with 4 juniors...kind of dissapointed...sometimes will think tat y i cant even manage the club good??? only watching the active members in club becoming lesser and lesser......can somebody tell me what can i do??? i really get so upset to see this situation...where's the passion of everyone???i know assignments and test are importants...and everyone is rushing on it...me too...in this busy days who don hav assignments and test? but that cant be the excuses for us to skip the training...does that 2 hours of training really take up a lot of time? one week only 6 hours...this has consider very few di...but still people cant make it...haiz...
absent is one thing...but the important is the passion of everyone has gone...y???i dunno...people come to tell me one by one say that they actually come training for fun...they dont aim high for the competition....sometimes i dont even feel they want to go competition...the passion has gone as time goes by...i really dunno wat can i do...just hope that things will be fine after tests and assignments...passion will be back after competition...

p/s: being a leader is really not an easy thing...

喜欢早晨的阳光，
暖暖的洒在身上，
像是为我充电，
迎接充满挑战的一天...

喜欢被大风吹的感觉，
像推我往前走，
似乎在提醒我要加紧脚步向前迈进，
不让停歇在原地...

喜欢仰望蓝天白云，
让我在忙碌的生活中也要偶尔停下脚步，
欣赏世界的美妙，
周围的风景...

喜欢下雨天，
让我知道是时候把手上的功作放下，
让自己好好的睡个觉, 休息休息...

喜欢夜深人静的时候，
可以让自己深思，
反省自己有没有做了伤害别人的事，
有没有说错话上到别人的心，
还有什么要改进...

喜欢和朋友一起出去，
感觉到在忙碌的生活中，
还有人会陪伴在你的身边，
和你一起吵吵闹闹，
让我不会孤独...

喜欢把自己当作小丑，
带给别人欢笑，
忘记所有的烦恼，
让我从别人笑声中也跟着开心起来...

生活虽然很忙碌，
但有时还是要停下脚步，
欣赏一路上的风景，
让我觉得世界是美妙的，
应该去珍惜每一分，每一秒，
及曾经在我身边流过脚步的人，
谢谢你们为我的生活变得更多姿多彩...

this is wat we call friends....

they always be with u when u need them...
they know when to have a serious talk to u....
they will know wat is inside ur heart....and u don even need to tell them....
they will know wat response u will giv in some situstion...
they always know when to give u opinion and when to listen to u....
they wont continue asking u what happen is u don wish to tell...
they will stay beside u when u down....
they will give u support whenever u need it...
if u happy....they will be happy for u also...
if u r sad...they will feel sad too...with no reason...
they will always give u what u want on the right time....
there is a bond between u two that people wont know...
nobody can replace u in their heart...n this is wat we call frens...

p/s:to all my frens...i hope that our friendship will on and on till forever ya...hehe

with all my hearts...

today i went queensbay alone to buy present for my ex roommate-->a black,esther, n ke shin...reach there about 3.30 n i start to search for anything meaningful for them for their convocation...
initially i'm thinking to buy pen tat can crave their name on it...but after i see it...i feel like is just normal only...then i search again for any other things that can buy for them....i saw flowers,bears and so many other things tat people use to give on convocation...but i need something more special that i hope can touch their heart when they open it....
then i reach a shop call rooms-->a very special shop that full many funny things...indeed i always will hav a stop whenever i pass by the shop in kl...the only thing i found in this shop in the misic box which require us to turn n make the music...it's quite meaningful(for me la...haha)...so i make this as the thing im going to buy if i can see any better choices....
i start shopping around again till i found this shop-->ceramic house...i went in then i decided to paint my own custom made product...
ya...i paint myself....i paint two...one for a black n one for esther...i spend nearly 3 hours sitting there fo finish my piece of work...so sad tat i cant upload the photo...sob sob....i need to wait for about half hour for them to glue those tiny works on it....so i take a walk around to find present for ke shin....i bought a bear for her...while waiting for the ceramic...im so lucky tat i met wye shiun n vincent n goli in qb...haha....i can tumpang wye shiun's car back to usm...haha...no need to wait for bus...but before we go back...v decided to watch movie first...n this is y im back to hostel so late...n still blogging at this time...
i am so tired now...n i wan to get to sleep now n wake up so late tml morning...nitez lo...
p/s:i will upload those photo of my piece of work asap....wait ya...haha

satisfaction i feel today...so good...

im blogging again late at nite...feel so happy n a bit satisfied bout wat i have done today...i condust the very first training session for the juniors...this is the first time i facing all the juniors in teaching them the first step to start addicted in fencing...quite satisfied coz i can see them really pay hard attention in learning(though only taught them on guard--the way v stand when v fence,marche--moving forward and rompe--moving backward)...i can see some of them really have potential in fencing...trough the way they stand n marche n rompe...also all the senior's hard work in teaching them...n the funniest thing is yumin told me tat most of them suitable to play epee...which is the weapon tat i play...n she told me mostly is because of me...becoz i demonstrate i "epee style" to them so they start follow me...haha...its really a funny thing...isn't it???
around 20 of them turn up to training today...n i hope all of them will still continue to join our big family till the end of the sem...though i noe most of them will start to skip n then "dissapear" in time after some days...but i stil hope tat they will continue n slowly discover the joy in fencing...tat's wat i hope to see...

im alright after all...

today i need to conduct a briefing about fencing to all the juniors tat are joining us...the briefing will start on 8.30 in dk N...so v be there earlier to set up things...but so unfortunately...because of some technical problem...v couldn't use dk N for the briefing...n they chase us out without given us any chance to explain...v already give out fliers say tat the briefing will be held today in dk n...v cant do nothing n i was so blank tat i cant even think of any alternatives...i try to call our advisor but he couldn't answer our call...then finally v made a decision to move to tennis platform where v having training each day to carry on the briefing...at tat time i feel like y i couldn't make a decision on tat tough time...though am trying to be as good as i could...but this show me tat i am nothing after all...everyone is waiting for my decision but wat i do is just start panic...i really don wish to be like tat... luckily the briefing still can carry on successfully...
though it is done successfully...the stress i feel in my mind has really give a hard time...n gosh...at the end of the briefing when v packing up things n prepare to go back...i cry...tears from my eyes...n this is really not i wish to...its kinda embarassing i think...haha...crying in front of my frens(though its not the first time)...but i just can't help it...i am not angry at anyone...its just i'm mad with myself...i should do all those things better...my mental should be strong tat time....i just need some time to relax my mind...but im alright...n i would like to appologize to frens for making u all so shock at tat moment...wondering wat happen...n im so thankful for my dear roommate n my dear neighbour for understanding me so much...n can feel tat im not in a good condition today...i dunno how to describe the feelings...but just to say really thank u ah nek n bing bing...really happy to have u there for supporting me...
back to the briefing...i can feel the passion in everyone's heart...to work out something together..although v faces so many obstacle from last week till now...thanks for everyone helping hand....i can feel the passion of everyone in fencing...n everyone care to me...i really feel very touch...thanks everyone-->cpk,vince,mond gor,collin,mei fong,how yee,eang bee,kai lin,mary, xin yun,yu min,zi how,jun long and the others...u all really help out a lot...without anyone of u the briefing wont be tat good... n v can't build our big family n also a really strong team...hope all of us will keep our passion on n on ya...

wat a healthy day...

yesterday i went hiking with few of my frens to pantai kerachut...though i really don wish to get up in the morn but i still push myself to wake up(coz don wish to ffk...hehe) then had my breakfast---a cup of milk n few pieces of biscuit then 7 of us(dai lou,jiun wen,edward,jimmy,leong kheng,pui yee n me) start our journey heading to pantai kerachut...it tooks around one hour journey to reach there from usm...when v reach there is around 10.30am n v start our journey...
i enjoy very much though there are some shocking things v found on the way...but i still enjoy it...very much...haha...all the way hiking towards the beach is a bit hard..as there is so many staircase which is not in same height...at first really tired....but after around 15 mins is better...but so bad is tat when v feel better tat time...it start raining...n v r all wet...omg...i already cant differentiate the water drops on my face is the rain or sweat...the way to the seaside has become slipery after the rain...v walk slowly...half way to the seaside...i saw a snake...so scary...red head with purple blue body....i was screaming....n i don even know tat was a snake until jimmy told me...after it gone v continue our hiking journey towards the seaside...so many stairs going downwards...when v come up tat time sure cham di...haha...
after a long long journey(act just around one hour...) v reach the beach...n everyone start to play...but i was so...unlucky...can say lucky also...haha...to hit by the jellyfish broken legs...n i don even noe tat i was hit by the tat...just feel a bit pain...until dai lou n leong kheng attack by the jelly fish(they kena a lot...the jellyfish hit dai lou's hand n leong kheng's back)...they told me bout tat then only i noe tat i also kena...haha...luckily the people there got vinegar for us to apply...
after v spent about half hour there v start our hiking journey again...going back...as i say earlier...v really have a hard time to to climb back the staircase...sooo tiring...evryone was so enjoy but thinking of coming again next week...suddenly all of us fell very tiring...haha...next week is the interaction day..so all of us hav to go....
but still v all enjoy very much...bad experience...but stilll v r happy...n tat day i think i the day i talk the least after i came back to penang...haha....next time who wants to see me so quiet then ask me go hiking with u la...haha

just heard of a bad news recently...saying tat a fren of mine has lost part of his memory...all happens in one nite only...he had fever...then the other day wake up only can remember 6 people only...im not included in...when i heard of it...it seems like so unbelievable...y such things happen in my life...i thought this would only happen in drama...never think before this would happen to my fren...i feel so sad bout this...sms him...he reply me as im a stranger...then the other day he call me....as though i am really a stranger...he din remember any thing about me...i try to talk about us...try to make him remember bout me...after so long...finally he got tothink of something bout me...though is really little...but is more than enough liao....coz still got something....
after talking to him...i start thinking wat will i do if i was him?
suddenly wake up with all memory lost...cant even think of any of frens...even my family also i cant remember....wat will i do?i guess i will be very scared tat time....everything is so strange to me...how to face my fren? my family?as a stranger?really dunno how...haha...
anyway...hope tat my fren wil get well soon..when i see him again next time i wish he can remember everything bout us...

now only i noe how they feel...

my brother went to Malacca to further his study there...so left only me n my parents at home... for the first time i feel wat they feel when v r not around the...not to say sad...but its just the feeling tat they really worry bout us when v r not around them...i guess sometimes they will feel lonely too...haha...
i saw them waiting for the phone call from my brother...worry bout how his life going in malacca...the mix feeling tat they have when v r not around them...haha...sometimes i will think back tat wat they feel when im going back to penang? for sure they will bemore lonely n more worry bout us... only two of them at home..they will start thinking of us more...haha...
this is wat they r going through...watching us going out to study one follow by another...the house become more silent...without our voice...without our laughter...im wondering how they really feel deep inside their heart...so big the house but only left two of them...watching each other...looking towards the day tat v r going back...waiting till the neck also got so long...haha...
i think next sem i have to come back more often to accompany them dy...haha...

usm life...

its end of second sem di...n i only left one paper-->accounting...after this paper,my first year in usm can be consider end di...when i come back again i will be a senior di...haha...senior leh...never thought before time really passes so fast...especially this sem...from waiting for christmas then cny and then CS nite then sabah then so fast its final exam....really really so fast....is still not yet weel prepare to be a senior leh....haha....
sitting in library looking outside...suddenly feel the urge to blog again...haha...i guess i din post any new blog for weeks di...haha...looking outside....i feel that tis university is really really nice...big trees...buildings...u wont feel that is a nice place...but when u look from up...its really really nice...touch me a lot...with the combination of trees and roads and buildings...haha...
there is one valuable lesson i learn after 2 sem in usm...that is everyone has their own personality....no one is rights or wrong for a mistake made...learn to accept the others...u will find a brighter side.....haha...

i just come across an e-mail....n the content it is really meaningful...4 me la...haha...
but i wish everyone who stop by will have a look on it n also think of it...

HUMAN BEINGS ARE SUCH SMALL CREATURES, AREN'T THEY?

SO DON'T BE TOO WORRIED ABOUT EVERYTHING,

TREASURE EVERY MOMENT, DO WHAT YOU WISH TO DO.....

BROADEN YOUR VIEW, BROADEN YOUR MIND,

DON'T WORRY TOO MUCH ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE BOTHERING YOU,

DO TREASURE YOUR LOVE, LIVE SAFELY AND PEACEFULLY,

ALWAYS BE HAPPY TO WELCOME THE COMING OF THE NEW DAY....... ENJOY THE SUNSHINE ..

ALWAYS LOOK AT THE BRIGHTER SIDE OF THINGS.....

i really appreciate what is in this small little passage...
come n think of this...i believe it will brighten up ur day...
n i will practice this phrase in my life..."always be happy to welcome the coming of the new day"...
this is wat v need to practice in our daily life...isn't it?

pig...

Human = eat + sleep + work + enjoy
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Human = Pigs + work + enjoy
if, Human - enjoy = Pigs + work
in other words,
Human that don't know how to enjoy = pigs that work
Men = eat + sleep + earn money
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Men = Pigs + earn money
if Men - earn money = Pigs
in other words,
Men that don't earn money = Pigs
Women = eat + sleep + spend
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Women = Pigs + spend
if, Women - spend = Pigs
In other words,
Women that don't spend = Pigs

Summary:

Men earn money not to let women become pigs!
Women spend not to let men become pigs!

Men + Women = 2 Pigs
Wish all the pigs happy forever.

想...

想了一整个晚上，终于让我想通了某些事...
其实并不需要那么地为某些事而执著，让自己那么费神...
有时候也并不需要给自己那么多压力来做好某些事，只要你觉得你已经做了你应该做得就好...
世上并没有百分百对的事情，又何必管别人怎么想...对得起自己的良心就好...
认为是对得就去做，不必要得到别人的肯定...问心无愧就好...
很开心终于让我想通了...
在想的过程，曾经想过要放弃，也曾经怀疑自己的能力和要把事情做好的决心...
可是，这些已不以足够动摇我要对他的付出和把它弄得更好的决心...
因为，我已经有心理准备要如何去面对所有的困难...
琪，相信你自己是可以的，要对自己有信心...用你的真心来做每一件事...从错误中学习...一切将会变得更美好...要加油哦!!!

my 21st birthday...

this year birthday really special....haha...coz...i celebrate 3 times leh...special rite?hee...
the first one....thanks for a nek, bing bing, pei pei, black n esther...
u all really supprise me la...i never thought tat u all really will celebrate my bday to me...haha...with the two red egg somemore....haha....really thank u soooo much....
i really very gan dong o....so i decided to giv all of u my "shen qing" de kiss...hehe....
muackssssssssssssssssssssssssss.............
then the second one is with family de....v went the curve to eat hakka dishes-->pun choi...
all of us really eat till very full....even more sampat thing tat v do on tat day is v all wear very pretty n force mummy to wear dress somemore...haha....really had a long time 6 of us go out together to hav dinner in kl...haha....i really really miss u all....but so sad i oly can go back once a month....but nvm...i will always misss u all so much de....
the third one...really really a big supprise for me...haha....its on the day of my bday....from all my teammate....
i really love u all soo much....u all really make me cry tat day....i was so shock tat u all will hav such a great bday celebration for me....i don even think of tat u will celebrate my bday like tat....i really dunno wat to say liao....just thank you sooo much...haha...dunno wat else i can say liao...haha...

team spirit...

today suddenly got the feel to update my blog...haha...must leave comment to me k..hee...
wat i wan to say is that i really like the team spirit tat v built in sabah...i feel the spirit n the bond of our team for the first time...n i wish tat this will be continue till forever...all the silly things v hav done in sabah....although really really silly but i think all of us really enjoy very much...
wat bu panjang!!!buuuuuuuuuu...
n also bu pendek!!!bu!
will always keep in my mind...
all my teammate....v go sabah again next year ok?hehe...

p/s: i miss the sotong bakar n ikan bakar....next year must buy more to eat...hee...

just another moody day...

haiz... this few days im extremely moody....no matter how also i cant be as happy as usual...
hormonal changes? maybe...
miss home? i guess this is the main reason gua...
feel so sad tat im so far away from my family.... cant join every activity they r having....
especially now...v r moving to a new house... every week my sis will go back to help packing the stuff tat need to bring to the new house ....just tat im alone here....doing nothing....cant contribute anything....sienz....
now even boring thing is my brother is on leave now...when i call back home tat day...they all having dinner together...only me not there...u noe how sad im here in penang?i really wish tat im there....but wat to do...i still need to wait 4 another 2 days b4 i can go back....
sometimes i will wish tat the university i apply is within kl area...then i can go back more often...n i wont feel so lonely here...but...haiz...things cant change di....all tat i can do is just accept...n enjoy my life here....
now...all i wish to do is to get back my normal "crazy" life....i dont wan to stay at this moody state...crazy de jackie...come back lo....hehe...

another moody day...

the big family favourite food....

my family either my mom's side or my dad's side....v all like yong tau foo so much....
all of them really crazy bout it....can finish all no matter how many....

this is prepare during my dad's birthday....my mom's side relatives were there....





this is their favourite....they can finish all....
















crazy leh.....v finish all leh....
geng leh.....haha....

clubbing again after so long....

the last weekend of my holiday i spend with my sis go clubbing in kl....it has been around two years didn't go di....hehe...summore this is the first time i club in kl...the previous one also with my sis but the venue is in melaka....
this is b4 v going out.. with all my sis fren....

enjoying so much tat nite....after so long didn't go clubbing....haha

new year eve...

this is the second blog im going to post today...hehe...

i dunno y....the morn i wake up...im having a mix feeling....nt really happy n nt to say sad too...
don ask me i also dunno y....feel like so soon one year has gone...n im trying to recall back wat i hav done this year...just then i noe this year i hav gone through a lot...
from JAN till MAY --> working in genting...
there i meet my really best buddy --KATHRYN
* p/s -- this is the photo both of us like so much...
although the time v spend together i sreally short but both of us become really best fren....v hav topics tat will never end...even v didn't see each other often but our topics is really endless...everytime v meet up...sure v going to spend the nite talking till late at nite...

then i went to MMU in cyberjaya for two weeks before i enter to USM
enjoying at there too...having the greatest orientation week there...it will be one of my unforgetable experience in my life...

after tat i went to USM in penang...i got an offer from them
studying computer science (my first choice)...haha
n here more exited things happen...

-->friendship...haha...lots to say....my gang...
my fencing gang ---> mei fong,how yi ,mary,eang bee

a really strong relationship has generated between 5 of us...
coursemate + teammate...everywhere v go... must be stick together de(unless v hav really serious thing to do)...hope tat this strong relationship will last forever....n the relationship between us wont change...
then is surene(nek) n sook bing(bing bing)

3 of us staying in the same hostel n v usually spend our nite together 4 assignment n also study 4 the exam...
*p/s nek is the name surene's parent usually call her n bing bing is the name tat me n surene always call...they smetimes will call me qiqi also...haha

then of coz my fencing teammate...
after the intensive training b4 the touche competition...v become really best fren....n they let me noe of wat is team...a really great lesson to my life... thanks a lot...haha...fencing 'wan shui"...

this new year eve im celebrating with my roommate n her frens in her senior house....v r having bbq there....lots of food...am enjoying very much there...hehe...

time really past very fast....must appreciate every moment in life....
enjoy life ya....

happy new year....

new year di...should update my blog di...haha...
after so long of "resting" somethig new should be posted to my blog di...
n i wish i could post more today...

first...wish u all happy new year first...
may all the good lucks go to all my frens...

new year...emm...must hav some new year resolution ma...
although every years also hav but non of it comes true...but still need to hav de ma...haha
this year...emm...wat i wan leh? cant think of any i really deserve la....emm...maybe...haha...i noe di...wish tat i can successfully keep fit...all the fats go away from me...haha...can i? i'll try to be...haha
then...i wish mummy's eye will get better this year...
the next one --> SECRET...haha...cannot tell de....

hope tat at the end of 2009 all my resolution will come true...haha....
jackie...gambate lo...