people o people...where's the passion???

yesterday go training...only 3 seniors...with 4 juniors...kind of dissapointed...sometimes will think tat y i cant even manage the club good??? only watching the active members in club becoming lesser and lesser......can somebody tell me what can i do??? i really get so upset to see this situation...where's the passion of everyone???i know assignments and test are importants...and everyone is rushing on it...me too...in this busy days who don hav assignments and test? but that cant be the excuses for us to skip the training...does that 2 hours of training really take up a lot of time? one week only 6 hours...this has consider very few di...but still people cant make it...haiz...
absent is one thing...but the important is the passion of everyone has gone...y???i dunno...people come to tell me one by one say that they actually come training for fun...they dont aim high for the competition....sometimes i dont even feel they want to go competition...the passion has gone as time goes by...i really dunno wat can i do...just hope that things will be fine after tests and assignments...passion will be back after competition...

p/s: being a leader is really not an easy thing...

喜欢早晨的阳光，
暖暖的洒在身上，
像是为我充电，
迎接充满挑战的一天...

喜欢被大风吹的感觉，
像推我往前走，
似乎在提醒我要加紧脚步向前迈进，
不让停歇在原地...

喜欢仰望蓝天白云，
让我在忙碌的生活中也要偶尔停下脚步，
欣赏世界的美妙，
周围的风景...

喜欢下雨天，
让我知道是时候把手上的功作放下，
让自己好好的睡个觉, 休息休息...

喜欢夜深人静的时候，
可以让自己深思，
反省自己有没有做了伤害别人的事，
有没有说错话上到别人的心，
还有什么要改进...

喜欢和朋友一起出去，
感觉到在忙碌的生活中，
还有人会陪伴在你的身边，
和你一起吵吵闹闹，
让我不会孤独...

喜欢把自己当作小丑，
带给别人欢笑，
忘记所有的烦恼，
让我从别人笑声中也跟着开心起来...

生活虽然很忙碌，
但有时还是要停下脚步，
欣赏一路上的风景，
让我觉得世界是美妙的，
应该去珍惜每一分，每一秒，
及曾经在我身边流过脚步的人，
谢谢你们为我的生活变得更多姿多彩...

this is wat we call friends....

they always be with u when u need them...
they know when to have a serious talk to u....
they will know wat is inside ur heart....and u don even need to tell them....
they will know wat response u will giv in some situstion...
they always know when to give u opinion and when to listen to u....
they wont continue asking u what happen is u don wish to tell...
they will stay beside u when u down....
they will give u support whenever u need it...
if u happy....they will be happy for u also...
if u r sad...they will feel sad too...with no reason...
they will always give u what u want on the right time....
there is a bond between u two that people wont know...
nobody can replace u in their heart...n this is wat we call frens...

p/s:to all my frens...i hope that our friendship will on and on till forever ya...hehe

with all my hearts...

today i went queensbay alone to buy present for my ex roommate-->a black,esther, n ke shin...reach there about 3.30 n i start to search for anything meaningful for them for their convocation...
initially i'm thinking to buy pen tat can crave their name on it...but after i see it...i feel like is just normal only...then i search again for any other things that can buy for them....i saw flowers,bears and so many other things tat people use to give on convocation...but i need something more special that i hope can touch their heart when they open it....
then i reach a shop call rooms-->a very special shop that full many funny things...indeed i always will hav a stop whenever i pass by the shop in kl...the only thing i found in this shop in the misic box which require us to turn n make the music...it's quite meaningful(for me la...haha)...so i make this as the thing im going to buy if i can see any better choices....
i start shopping around again till i found this shop-->ceramic house...i went in then i decided to paint my own custom made product...
ya...i paint myself....i paint two...one for a black n one for esther...i spend nearly 3 hours sitting there fo finish my piece of work...so sad tat i cant upload the photo...sob sob....i need to wait for about half hour for them to glue those tiny works on it....so i take a walk around to find present for ke shin....i bought a bear for her...while waiting for the ceramic...im so lucky tat i met wye shiun n vincent n goli in qb...haha....i can tumpang wye shiun's car back to usm...haha...no need to wait for bus...but before we go back...v decided to watch movie first...n this is y im back to hostel so late...n still blogging at this time...
i am so tired now...n i wan to get to sleep now n wake up so late tml morning...nitez lo...
p/s:i will upload those photo of my piece of work asap....wait ya...haha

satisfaction i feel today...so good...

im blogging again late at nite...feel so happy n a bit satisfied bout wat i have done today...i condust the very first training session for the juniors...this is the first time i facing all the juniors in teaching them the first step to start addicted in fencing...quite satisfied coz i can see them really pay hard attention in learning(though only taught them on guard--the way v stand when v fence,marche--moving forward and rompe--moving backward)...i can see some of them really have potential in fencing...trough the way they stand n marche n rompe...also all the senior's hard work in teaching them...n the funniest thing is yumin told me tat most of them suitable to play epee...which is the weapon tat i play...n she told me mostly is because of me...becoz i demonstrate i "epee style" to them so they start follow me...haha...its really a funny thing...isn't it???
around 20 of them turn up to training today...n i hope all of them will still continue to join our big family till the end of the sem...though i noe most of them will start to skip n then "dissapear" in time after some days...but i stil hope tat they will continue n slowly discover the joy in fencing...tat's wat i hope to see...

im alright after all...

today i need to conduct a briefing about fencing to all the juniors tat are joining us...the briefing will start on 8.30 in dk N...so v be there earlier to set up things...but so unfortunately...because of some technical problem...v couldn't use dk N for the briefing...n they chase us out without given us any chance to explain...v already give out fliers say tat the briefing will be held today in dk n...v cant do nothing n i was so blank tat i cant even think of any alternatives...i try to call our advisor but he couldn't answer our call...then finally v made a decision to move to tennis platform where v having training each day to carry on the briefing...at tat time i feel like y i couldn't make a decision on tat tough time...though am trying to be as good as i could...but this show me tat i am nothing after all...everyone is waiting for my decision but wat i do is just start panic...i really don wish to be like tat... luckily the briefing still can carry on successfully...
though it is done successfully...the stress i feel in my mind has really give a hard time...n gosh...at the end of the briefing when v packing up things n prepare to go back...i cry...tears from my eyes...n this is really not i wish to...its kinda embarassing i think...haha...crying in front of my frens(though its not the first time)...but i just can't help it...i am not angry at anyone...its just i'm mad with myself...i should do all those things better...my mental should be strong tat time....i just need some time to relax my mind...but im alright...n i would like to appologize to frens for making u all so shock at tat moment...wondering wat happen...n im so thankful for my dear roommate n my dear neighbour for understanding me so much...n can feel tat im not in a good condition today...i dunno how to describe the feelings...but just to say really thank u ah nek n bing bing...really happy to have u there for supporting me...
back to the briefing...i can feel the passion in everyone's heart...to work out something together..although v faces so many obstacle from last week till now...thanks for everyone helping hand....i can feel the passion of everyone in fencing...n everyone care to me...i really feel very touch...thanks everyone-->cpk,vince,mond gor,collin,mei fong,how yee,eang bee,kai lin,mary, xin yun,yu min,zi how,jun long and the others...u all really help out a lot...without anyone of u the briefing wont be tat good... n v can't build our big family n also a really strong team...hope all of us will keep our passion on n on ya...

wat a healthy day...

yesterday i went hiking with few of my frens to pantai kerachut...though i really don wish to get up in the morn but i still push myself to wake up(coz don wish to ffk...hehe) then had my breakfast---a cup of milk n few pieces of biscuit then 7 of us(dai lou,jiun wen,edward,jimmy,leong kheng,pui yee n me) start our journey heading to pantai kerachut...it tooks around one hour journey to reach there from usm...when v reach there is around 10.30am n v start our journey...
i enjoy very much though there are some shocking things v found on the way...but i still enjoy it...very much...haha...all the way hiking towards the beach is a bit hard..as there is so many staircase which is not in same height...at first really tired....but after around 15 mins is better...but so bad is tat when v feel better tat time...it start raining...n v r all wet...omg...i already cant differentiate the water drops on my face is the rain or sweat...the way to the seaside has become slipery after the rain...v walk slowly...half way to the seaside...i saw a snake...so scary...red head with purple blue body....i was screaming....n i don even know tat was a snake until jimmy told me...after it gone v continue our hiking journey towards the seaside...so many stairs going downwards...when v come up tat time sure cham di...haha...
after a long long journey(act just around one hour...) v reach the beach...n everyone start to play...but i was so...unlucky...can say lucky also...haha...to hit by the jellyfish broken legs...n i don even noe tat i was hit by the tat...just feel a bit pain...until dai lou n leong kheng attack by the jelly fish(they kena a lot...the jellyfish hit dai lou's hand n leong kheng's back)...they told me bout tat then only i noe tat i also kena...haha...luckily the people there got vinegar for us to apply...
after v spent about half hour there v start our hiking journey again...going back...as i say earlier...v really have a hard time to to climb back the staircase...sooo tiring...evryone was so enjoy but thinking of coming again next week...suddenly all of us fell very tiring...haha...next week is the interaction day..so all of us hav to go....
but still v all enjoy very much...bad experience...but stilll v r happy...n tat day i think i the day i talk the least after i came back to penang...haha....next time who wants to see me so quiet then ask me go hiking with u la...haha