im alright after all...

today i need to conduct a briefing about fencing to all the juniors tat are joining us...the briefing will start on 8.30 in dk N...so v be there earlier to set up things...but so unfortunately...because of some technical problem...v couldn't use dk N for the briefing...n they chase us out without given us any chance to explain...v already give out fliers say tat the briefing will be held today in dk n...v cant do nothing n i was so blank tat i cant even think of any alternatives...i try to call our advisor but he couldn't answer our call...then finally v made a decision to move to tennis platform where v having training each day to carry on the briefing...at tat time i feel like y i couldn't make a decision on tat tough time...though am trying to be as good as i could...but this show me tat i am nothing after all...everyone is waiting for my decision but wat i do is just start panic...i really don wish to be like tat... luckily the briefing still can carry on successfully...
though it is done successfully...the stress i feel in my mind has really give a hard time...n gosh...at the end of the briefing when v packing up things n prepare to go back...i cry...tears from my eyes...n this is really not i wish to...its kinda embarassing i think...haha...crying in front of my frens(though its not the first time)...but i just can't help it...i am not angry at anyone...its just i'm mad with myself...i should do all those things better...my mental should be strong tat time....i just need some time to relax my mind...but im alright...n i would like to appologize to frens for making u all so shock at tat moment...wondering wat happen...n im so thankful for my dear roommate n my dear neighbour for understanding me so much...n can feel tat im not in a good condition today...i dunno how to describe the feelings...but just to say really thank u ah nek n bing bing...really happy to have u there for supporting me...
back to the briefing...i can feel the passion in everyone's heart...to work out something together..although v faces so many obstacle from last week till now...thanks for everyone helping hand....i can feel the passion of everyone in fencing...n everyone care to me...i really feel very touch...thanks everyone-->cpk,vince,mond gor,collin,mei fong,how yee,eang bee,kai lin,mary, xin yun,yu min,zi how,jun long and the others...u all really help out a lot...without anyone of u the briefing wont be tat good... n v can't build our big family n also a really strong team...hope all of us will keep our passion on n on ya...